Hi! It has been quite a trip already. I am traveling with Elena and her brother. I am feeling a bit like i am the only person on earth who speaks only one language. But Lena and i are having a good time. We have picked up quite easily, and it definitely doesn't feel like it's been a year and a half since i last saw her.
You know, i had all these ideas of things to talk about and now that i'm sitting at a keyboard, they have all fallen out of my head. This is the exact cafe i sat in with Autumn when we first arrived in Berlin for our 2 day trip 4 years ago. I find one or 2 things every day that are familiar because of that trip. I feel, for one major point, that i have become a much better traveler since then.
and for all my worries ahead of time, this has been a refreshingly worry free trip!
well, until next time,
Bye!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
ting
That's the sound of the little light in my head going off, as i finally figure out what it is that i've been figuring out little by little specifically for the last 6 months and more generically for the last 2 1/2 years.
A few days ago, i realised that i could stay in st. louis. I could be happy here, have friends, meet someone, find a cool place to live, find a job that makes me happy, etc. Today, i was looking at facebook, and saw that somebody i used to know and still think a lot of is living in des moines, iowa. Not to knock des moines, but i'd never want to live there.
I finally figured out, for me personally, i actually could be happy in a lot of places. I've been spending all this time trying to figure out the right place to go and the right job to try for and so on, and i'm finally admitting to myself, and any of the 3 people who might still read this, that that place really could be anywhere. sure, i've got my ideals and specifics. but as far as people go? i could find people to click with in any city in the country. what's made it so much harder here has been my determination that i am not staying here. so i didnt' branch out. i didn't look for a place to live or join any real communities or anything. I think that if was simply to let myself be here, i could be happy here. so the real task is, and probably always has been, finding a way to let myself be happy where i am.
A few days ago, i realised that i could stay in st. louis. I could be happy here, have friends, meet someone, find a cool place to live, find a job that makes me happy, etc. Today, i was looking at facebook, and saw that somebody i used to know and still think a lot of is living in des moines, iowa. Not to knock des moines, but i'd never want to live there.
I finally figured out, for me personally, i actually could be happy in a lot of places. I've been spending all this time trying to figure out the right place to go and the right job to try for and so on, and i'm finally admitting to myself, and any of the 3 people who might still read this, that that place really could be anywhere. sure, i've got my ideals and specifics. but as far as people go? i could find people to click with in any city in the country. what's made it so much harder here has been my determination that i am not staying here. so i didnt' branch out. i didn't look for a place to live or join any real communities or anything. I think that if was simply to let myself be here, i could be happy here. so the real task is, and probably always has been, finding a way to let myself be happy where i am.
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