First day..whoa

So i'm definitely still processing just the things i've heard and seen today, and there's more coming tomorrow.
We had our orientation at St. Bernard Project this morning. Then we spent the afternoon working at various sites mudding and sanding drywall. Which would be a large chunk of my job if i was going to be working as a site supervisor. But I'm not. I'm starting tomorrow as a starter. My job is going to be going into new houses, doing structural work and framing and doors and windows. I don't actually know what else i'll be doing and what all my job is going to involve, but i know that i needed to be a driver in order to do it, and i know that it doesn't really involve working with volunteers and homeowners to the same degree that site supervisor does. Which i'm really more than ok with. The thought of leading new volunteers each week and working with homeowners and just having to be ON all the time overwhelmed me. I don't know, I sort of fell into my head while i was in Sacramento, and i haven't really gotten out. I know that i'm capable of working hard and leading and being on all the time. But maybe that's why it's ok that i'm not doing that job. I know i'm capable of it, it just isn't what i want to do right now. Zac and Liz, the co-directors of St. Bernard Project said that they wanted us to have jobs that would challenge us. There are many people on my team who will be very stretched by the job of site supervisor. Not to say it would be easy for me, I'm sure i would find it incredibly challenging, but my goals for this phase are to become more proficient with building, and to be more chill about things. So maybe this job will be the way for me to do that.

Then tonight we had an orientation to living at camp hope. Camp Hope is at its lowest numbers for the whole 8 weeks we'll be here... the second week of march there will be over 1100 people here, and the building has a capacity for 800. Exciting! We live in converted class rooms. We shower in a shower truck that's outside between the school building and the cafeteria. (Camp Hope used to be Beauregard Middle School.) This morning at breakfast, i just wandered in circles, i was hardly awake and had no idea what to do with myself. I couldn't figure out what i wanted to eat, i wanted them to have yogurt, and soy milk, and i wished that i had remembered to bring tea into the cafeteria, because i was just grumpy and out of it. But i found something to make for lunch after a while, and we found out we didn't have to be at work until 9:30, so i had a chance to wake up, take a shower, and relax before work.

Sorry it's a bit rambly. Please ask any questions, i'm sure i've been spotty about explaining everything.

I think living at camp hope's gonna be pretty ok.

Now...Bed.